By Tiffany Deluccia
Six weeks. How much life can change in six weeks.
God is as good as ever, and I am much refreshed. Thanks for giving me a break. I believe Jesus was our model when he would regularly withdraw to seek the Father’s heart. That’s what April and this first half of May have been for me–a time of withdrawal to seek the Father’s heart. And as always, He makes Himself known.
I literally could not write in February and March. I felt so spiritually depleted from the battle we were going through. [A simplified version of the back story for you: Our church experienced a split. It was heartbreaking on many levels, as people felt confused, misled, angry, hurt… and a whole lot of other feelings. Feelings were not in short supply. But God is faithful. He is healing. He is renewing. People are dreaming again. He brings beauty from ashes.]
TJ and I are doing very well, and God has been leading us so clearly. We both, independently, heard Him speak one word we didn’t really want to hear in the middle of the craziness: Wait.
That’s all. Just wait.
But trust in His track record puts an expectation on a directive like wait. It almost makes me breathless to think of it. When the God of the universe tells me to wait, what can I be except curious beyond all measure? Like a kid told to stay put while a Father goes for the birthday gifts. My God said wait. And My God gives good gifts.
I don’t know what you’re going through right now — hey, we have some catching up to do — but I can tell you this: Seek the voice of God. Throw aside the expectations of others. His voice alone matters. And if what He says leaves you with more unknowns than you had to start, allow yourself to dream again. He is the Father of lights. If you feel in the dark, run to Him.
“Stay And Wait” (Hillsong United)
Who sets the sun and calls the dawn
Who breathed me out of dust to life
With the will to trust or run and hide
I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up Your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to Your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on Yours
Who loved me through my rebel way
Who chose to carry all my shame
Who breathes in me with endless life
The king of glory Jesus Christ
I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up Your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to Your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on Yours
God of wonder and God of grace
Let my soul stand always to praise You
Fix my eyes on Your perfect way
And I’ll never look back
I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up Your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to Your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on Yours
Who lifts the poor and heals the blind
Who trampled death for all mankind
Who stands for all with arms stretched wide
My King forever Jesus Christ